All plans changed again!

So once again i plan the day the night before, i find night time hard so i try and plan the next day, i suppose it gives me something to look forward to and calms me down a little that its planned and i am prepared.

But now woke up feeling to tired and no energy that i end up curled up in bed can’t sleep.  Then bang !!! my head starts thinking first why cant i sleep i am a failure i cant even sleep for a few hours and wake up feeling good. Then a failure for not being able to move or get out of bed.
Isn’t is strange how that feeling changes to a bad thought get bigger and bigger and how it efffects your body.

I am jealous of how people can get out of bed and function everyday, but then how i feel bad as others have illness that are so much worse than this and how they get on with there life.